I haven’t been on lately, though that goes without saying for anyone who’s following me. I wound up in the ER because one of my meds stopped working, and my doctor has been less than helpful in finding a solution. Because of this and a myriad of other problems, I changed doctors — only to get a doctor that denied me access with my SD (I’ll tell that story on another day). I still have no idea what to do about it, especially because my insurance is particular about the rules of changing doctors, which means I may have to keep seeing this one.
As if that’s not bad enough, the new doctor flat out told me that she won’t refill several of my meds, including my pain meds. She sent me home with a new prescription, one that “should” replace the one that caused me to wind up in the ER. Big surprise, it doesn’t actually work. In fact, it made things worse. And I haven’t gotten up the courage to make another appointment with her because I don’t know what to do about the SD issue.
In the meantime, everything that could possibly go wrong has been going wrong. I’m trying to stay positive because I know it’ll get better. It has to get better. But when every single time I think something is going to go positively, it goes wrong in every way possible… Well, it’s hard to stay positive. It’s hard to keep telling myself that it’s going to get better.
I just feel like giving up. Or at least curling up in a little ball and never interacting with the world ever again.